My bff tied the knot today. Im not really sure how to take it but im not gonna lie, I am jealous. Not because im not getting married but because now things are gonna change. Not for the worse necessarily but its gonna change. We've been bffs since 5th grade, seriously, thats a fucking long time. Been through it all - from sneaking out of the house to meeting some crazy Grenadians.
I said I'm jealous because now i have to share her with someone else, when i've had her to myself for over 10 years. Perhaps things might not change at all but im 98% sure this is not the case. I sound crazy but thats life, right? Seriously though, without absolutely any issues, can a single woman and a married woman keep their friendship exactly as it was? Maybe to a certain extent but not in the same way: perspectives will be altered along with priorities.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her too. Trust, i don't shit on love.
Now, maybe the truth of this lies in that I'm getting old. I'm turning 24 in less than a month, which means ill be 25 in a year then closer to 30. The fact that im AGING kills me. I don't wanna get old. Although being 23 has not been that great, it sounds better to say im turning 23 than 25. Plus with age comes a shitload more to worry about.
All in all, this "grown up" stuff is getting to me.
lol, i don't want to get old either. I'm too cute. haha.
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